I saw your post through the emails I receive from this site and I just wanted to reply because I know today you might feel lonely, sad and might be ruminating over last night. You could read my article about conscious breathing if youre interested in this. I have been divorced 8 years. Three weeks ago something clicked in my head after a number of outbursts from him. Should any consumers decide to switch from a gaming platform that does not give them a choice as to how to pay for new games (PlayStation) to one that does (Xbox), Microsoft wrote. Why I finally left? Everything I thought was special, everything I thought was our secret is just common And this literally means: theres nothing special about him there never was. Cry me a #$%ng river again? Meanwhile, they can calmly look on and shake their heads at your weakness, or roll their eyes at the drama. Their message? Tothineownselfbetrue, you are suffering from the aftermath of severe emotional abuse. Maybe all three. Im still with him and I cant even explain how he has messed me up!! Im not a psychology expert and Im sure Kim answered ur question best but it sounds like shes more likely bpd and that would be ur best bet for ur investigation. Lobby Forum.. Hi Kim: I told him every picture and voicemail had been deleted and it was like he never existed. They do not form healthy bonds with other people, so the usual emotions of missing someone or feelings of sadness and regret typically dont affect them. As the saying goes, the opposite of love isnt hate, its apathy. I used to wonder at times is he suffering struggling or having a ball of a time? you are so right.. they just keep hurting us.. i also tried for the last year to hold on and play his sick game.. but in the end he ended up coming back again (his back and fourth game) and leave again for the same sick loser he was cheating on me from day one. MrsV, thank you for reaching out and sharing your story. When I was leaving the first time I wrote him a three page letter. Unfortunately the damaging cycles were applied to anyone who saw through her behavior patterns, such as my mother and siblings. I was totally aloof one moment and loving the next. Ive got everything in my life going for me and I cannot understand why Ive allowed this treatment. Now just fighting the urge to return to the crazy, because he made me dependent on the crazy. I definitely agree that narcissists can also be female. All of which confirmed everything he said about me, that there was something wrong with me. You mean the other way around! Best wishes go out to you for your future! It seems small and meaningless, which makes it quite a covert way to lure you back into engaging. Be Prepared to Lose Friends lots of them. The things my ex comes up with is almost borderline hallucinations, stories no normal person would come up with. And i mean everybody! Ten years divorced later. Doesnt matter I guess. It wasnt until I saw that I was a former shell of myself that I realized what was going on. Yes she may think he is, but why would she tell him this? It finally stopped 2 weeks ago. working in yourself getting healthy THATS progress, success. I was angry for months, lashing out at male members of my family. So much hurt, such needless hurt really. It helps to keep me strong. Its their ego! In turn, I went all NC on him. Sigh. I feel a little less alone. After about 6 months the boom fell. I was broken. Then after 2 months the mask just came down and started again with devaluation, silence during the day saying from the morning she was feeling anxiety e full of anger, bully same story as the previous year. Can you imagine what awaits him in the near future? Youre in pain and you dont even act like it. It does seem that the best approach is to seek legal counsel. Its another way to strengthen the trauma bond. Uses triangulation, threats, rage, violence! S.M.H. He is single, so am I. You are not responsible for the behaviour of others. My response was sending him back his dvds that he had lent me. The clues I ignored, he has no male friends. Michelle , trust me you will get the chance to tell him go to hell. Well needless to say, he discarded me after that conversation which I was OK with, because it was the easier way out, without aggravation and without my having to sleep with one eye open. Good luck. Like going from black to white, hot to cold, up and then down and finally turned inside out by the reality of what the silence represents. Im happy to say that now, I no longer have feelings about my Ex good or bad. dastardly, mean-spirited, evil things he would do and say. anyway. When I produced $1200.00 worth of receipts and laid out my cleaning day and the meals I cooked he laughed at me. I left him he came back. He said he missed me all those years and fell hard for me. and then threw me away like I was nothing, it was more the way he looked at me that done it for me.. the mask fell and I truly see him for what he is. He also wrote something on her social media a few years ago, under a Valentines Day picture of them all cuddled up, about how he loved being in her arms (rolling my eyes at that one). Multiple psychopaths. I was walking on eggshells to not make him mad cause he always got mad at everything. Its all so toxic. If you are just learning about Narcissism, you will likely feel the need to educate yourself about it for a few months. i have plenty more to say. Get over/away from him. He is still able to get through on my mobile using no caller id, so I simply turned my phone off last night. They dont really want you to feel detached from them. I had the nightmare experience of a narsisist lover for 5 years. I still struggle with this whole horrific ordeal everyday, but I am n a much better place than I was months ago because being hurt the way I have damn near cost me to lose my mind.. I just dont want to get back sucked up into the hurt and although I know its about my baby and getting to know his family, i just dont know if its really sincere or if its a motive behind this because I mean afterall, who waits almost two years to get in touch with their flesh and blood, a innocent child? Only a narcissist would when they know they are facing something thats gonna make his life even more miserable even though its due to his own actions.. he always threatened to toss me and kids out in the street when we fought. Talk about a pandemic. I celebrate my blessings and am glad to be narcissist free. But, the crazy thing.is that I feel anxiety and I miss her. At first, I hesitatedwhat if there was a chance that we could still be something more? Compassionate , caring ,understanding qualitys. Ive had 3 years of this abuse, the twisted realities of my world and his. On our second date we were swinging her adorable little daughter between us at the park and as a 49 year old man without kids..I have always wanted my own little family. The narcissist was no where to be found. Then, theyll either send you away to cry alone, or theyll savor your pain, remaining calm as they berate you for weakness. Hed shout at her and call her a bitch. UGH!! I often wonder if he ever really loved me at all!!!! However, there are most definitely exceptionswhen further communication can be a bad thing or even potentially unsafe. He could spin ANYTHING & did. Stay strong.focus on you..and thank you all again. Subscribe by filling in the above! Then came back like nothing happened. Most likely laughing at my pain behind my back the whole time because he was putting one over on me, that was his favourite thing duping unsuspecting victims. Very charming. Also,how promises of future never manifesting, and her withholding from and not caring about my child, despite declarations claiming very different. I met his friends on only one occasion during the 8 months at his birthday party and he introduced me by my first name only. Im tired of being the doormat. If you havent heard of the cycle of narcissistic abuse it could be useful to first read my article about narcissistic abuse. Anyway one week was more than enough time to feel pain in my chest, face and body. Sure, they might still say nice things, but they look at you differently. Mine never hoovered or tried anything to do with me after this long, and like I said, is already in another relationship and seemed happy (doesnt look rebound to me). If you do go back you will see before too long that you were right to stay away the first time, as I did. They need them and wil really pour it on like my ex did with me to set that hook into them but its most definitely not love or the foundation of something healthy. Beleive it or not I just found out he and his sister had narcissistic tendencies .Their father had severe narcissist multiple personality disorder.Its hard to figure out when masked under severe alcoholism. i struggle with the thought of being nothing. Why do I long for him? I felt I needed my closure and I sent him an email outlying my reasons for leaving him and reminded him of the nasty things he had said and done. His wife moved on without him and bought a condo. This is a core sign of a narcissist. I know that I still need support. Its as if you knew my ex personally. Marianne, I am so glad to know youre involved with someone who really cares about you. Thank goodness for my years of journals, a good counseler, loving family and friends. In any event, she broke off our relationship about 3 months ago, for another guy. Is there any hope left for me? I hung up the phone right in the middle of the conversation. Its his way or the highway. He misses having someone to mop off his stage, all while paying the bills. You only have ONE life live it w/ someone who treats you right during the storms! and for the first time ever, as soon as I saw him I said what the f*ck happened your tan is HIDEOUS! (Ive NEVER said anything mean to him in my life hahaha). My questions for all of us is: How much of our lives do they get to destroy? That affair ran about 18 mo. Dear Kim, But I realized that this would be pure torture on me and still wouldnt satisfy him. I respect your time and just wanted to be honest. twenty-six years! Does the Jekyll & Hyde morph over into stage one again & the cycle continues? This all helps me stay a little stronger! Incidently everyone at work thinks he is a great laugh! You should be proud of yourself for not giving in you know whats coming eventually after that lovely lunch or dinner, or that beautiful weekend. That just showed me what he is really after. Runrunrun Narcissists are not always spoiled little brats, they are also abused themselves or grow up believing nothing they did is ever good enough. I didnt go to lunch so I must be getting stronger? After years of abuse, they realized they were in a destructive relationship and harmed them, so they left. 2 days before xmas he showed up. Im doing NC. Its up to you to brake the cicle with them by confrontating them with all your disgust and anger. He deleted everything about me on his face book every pic every post everything like I was never ever a part of his life and blocked me. I became more lonely in a new town, two babies and not knowing a sole while he was traveling. Always on time when Im searching for answers, mine was just sentenced to a year for his behavior, hate that Ive taken him back so many times, always looking for the real, nice guy in him ,the one I met, but I now know that was his mask, Im just glad I got out alive!!!! The sink is filled with dishes and he cant use the sink. I didnt think I would feel like this anymore because Ive been doing so great. He started laughing at me grabbed his phone and said Let me take your picture so you can see how stupid your face looks. Wow all of this is really helpful. Quite out of character for me. When my Ex and I separated the first time, he had fled the country and was married to another girl in less than two months. I also have realized that prayer works tremendously.. The shame I feel for falling for his repeated verbal, emotional and sexual abuse. What happens after The Torn Lover? ), never took initiative, didnt care about others, wasnt passionate about anything, not benevolent, never defended me EVER, was uncaring/feeling (told me to grow up when I talked about my feelings being hurt on one occasion), watched my dog die in my arms and asked me where I wanted to go for dinner shortly thereafter. Their defence against this is the discard and smear campaign. The police let him off and said he declared self defence!! Buttons pushed in private designed to provoke a public explosive reaction with a calm abuser looking on. I told him I would be out sooner. They could be talking to your family members, friends of yours, or people youve both spent time with. Therefore, its very important their attempts fail and to do this its essential to learn about hoovering in order to recognize and deal with it. The guy turned out a scumbag cheating on me ruined alot it me along time to get my esteem back often wondering how I was attracted to such a monster. For. They do that to incite their male victims instinctive need to protect and rescue them. I wish I knew about this before. Second of all I feel like my therapist steered me wrong because, I really needed him to come crawling back to me on his hands and knees so I had the pleasure of telling him to go to hell! What can I do and where can I go? The following day I put two and two together. i told him that i asked around and it seemed to be the norm for divorce parent to set visitations for every other weekends. My family dislikes her very much! HOW do I stop thinking about him! Along with all that BS were the stories about his ex wives and girlfriends. Kudos on going No Contact. My job knew something was wrong at home and tried to get me to seek help, I was scared. its been over for 6 months now and I do know he does not miss me the least but what I do know is that he hates me with such passion it makes me smile and certainly good enough for me. And you know what? Just disappear from his life and give yourself enough time to process the breakup. Giving and giving and giving until I was in tears, but it never met his standards. This is a good article for me because I just went No Contact with him Blocked him off my FB and sent the last of his mail to him telling him to change his address because everything that comes here is being returned to sender.. I cant even drive through the area where my ex lives and works without being on pins and needles. Ill get 6 mo. When I had contractions hed tell me to cover up my belly and he didnt want to see it and didnt even stay at the hospital with me the night I was admitted due to the fact he didnt have an overnight bag. Dont feel guilty or stupid or ashamed. It is absolutely unbelievable people can turn out this way. Anything can be worked through, compromised, fixed. Reblogged this on The Story of my Twin Boys , Oliver and Oscar Ferreira and commented: you sow what you reap!! Thankyou so much for taking the time to respond. Same w/ me. All the while, starting this grass is greener new life elsewhere, w/ someone else demanding to take our son for weekends etc. Astounding how narcs can do that, Im leaving after nine years your article was great very confirming, Wishing you all the very best on your path to a healed life. How I Plan to Talk to My Kids About Suicide, Daily Tips for a Healthy Mind to Your Inbox, Psychological Correlates of Ghosting and Breadcrumbing Experiences: A Preliminary Study among Adults, No Bitin Allowed: A Hip-Hop Copying Paradigm for All of Us, They regularly bail out on plans to get together, They don't like to share personal information, They don't want you to meet their friends or family, They rarely respond to your texts or calls, Your conversations with them lack depth, and they seem disinterested. I remember now, all of the words other people have said to me, you put up such a fascade how do you do it? I do a lot like garden I have a lot of veggies growing cause that helped keep my head busy! Please visit http://www.chumplady.com. and your ex or his family will win then! So we broke up a week ago. From what you wrote.you are very close to putting you first. And completely forgetting that he had tried to strangle me. Narcs are disgusting they need a taste of there own medicine!!! I am taking things slowly but it has been a breath of fresh air. Stay strong EVERYBODY I am starting to argue with this article in my head, thinking of all the ways it has to be wrong, but I guess the main point is, why does it even matter? They tell you they were so lonely when you implemented No Contact, that they defenselessly fell into the arms of a new lover. We were apart for a whole year and I grew alot, realized alot, and for better or worse, I had to admit that I truly loved this man. Even though she kicked him out. You can do this!! Theyre probably just under stress.. She very well may have began devoting more time to a side relationshipnew prey. blessings, courage , strength to make a better life for you!!!!!!!!!! I am getting married next year. Get information on latest national and international events & more. I found a Russian girl as his only friend and confronted him with it and he denied it saying he didnt know how it got there. in august, he started looking at dating sites, actually tried to contact a few. Now I become to realize that he will never change, he has all sighs of NC and whatever I was expecting the new supply will be also sooner or later . This isnt a quick fix. So, ultimate pressure. The two were happy and running around together in front of everyone two days after our break up. I broke down at work, went in to my bosses office and resigned. Mine came through with vacations, expensive gifts, sincere declarations of seeing the light and knowing I was his true love and threw in tears to top it all off. I think I could have seen through the lies and the abuse sooner had mind control not been involved. Anyway it doesnt really matterlife changes on a dime. First off, try to abort it. He is a classic narcissist, very selfish, said he had cheated on his first wife, and now his second. All I heard was, finish your book, finish it what you are looking for are in the words. Yes I still cry, baffled, its done, THYRE on to the next supply Save your angst, and your energy, for more important battles. I have too much pride in myself to move that quickly. I was living with a classic Narcissist. , I forgot to mention when I said our family and kids. He made my life miserable. I will do just that. I hope there is something there for you to link into. Is it due to your upbringing, family, trauma, etc. Ive been through a lot in my life time but nothing compares to the emotional pain that I have experienced with him over the past three years. I wrote an in-depth article about the silent treatment if you want to read more about this manipulative behaviour. its ABT you, Not them. I believe he values me over his ex or whomever. Prior to this two nights before I pulled him up on a telephone convo he had who I believed to be 100% another woman . I think you said it bestI am almost hoping to be hoovered. I still love the nice side of this man, does the pain ever go away? Dont get me wrong or interpret this post as someone severely depressed or has no hope. The way he was spoken to and treated you is not the way you deserve to be treated and as hard is it is, but its extremely humbling to look inside yourself and ask why did I allow this? He misses not having someone to take his frustrations out on. If you love a narcissistif you really love himthen you have to be strong enough to love him without expecting anything in return. He started harassing me calling me the very things I accused him of. If you can start surrounding yourself with genuine, supportive people it helps alot to get out of their mind control. I cant believe that someone so vile and toxic was in my life and that I allowed it. I said in the beginning that the good outweighed the bad and I know that there was no way that I could have left but over time I was with him 14 months, 3 days 11 hours lol there was absolutely nothing good left, he systematically killed everything we had, and we had a lot. Surprisingly I didnt cry and I havent cryed yet! I know Im in a better place without him, I may not have a nice house anymore, but nothing but peace here. I cried so much after a fight and he took my picture and showed me how horrible ugly I was to him unbelievable. Thank you, Ann, for sharing your story. I shivered when I read these. Porn is a poor substitute for real female contact. I had a tough time discerning what was gut instinct versus his voice in my head making me doubt myself. Thats what you dont do with them progress youre stuck. Healing!!!! so i ask him well what do you want. WTF). I am still recovering from a 33 year marriage to a narc who left one day with no remorse no explanation no guilt at all. Youre not alone. I really wish I had better news, but it seems the only way is to hire the lawyer. Even wanted a future next to me, saying I am the one, etc. Im freakin serious this time! An excellent role model and was even promoted. thank you, all of you, wonderful women on here that are sharing your stories. We are no longer together, nor i would like us to be back together however it seems that they are just as tormented as the people they take for granted i know is the case in my situation how would you help if lets say your brother would be in this situation? Almost immediately after I moved out he started seeing a woman who I considered a friend. Missing your ex can sting, I know, but youll sound desperate if you give him a love letter talking about your feelings. I am so happy to have found this account, as I simply thought he was just an A**hole, now I know that he is an N. He made me feel absolutely terrible, inferior, small, I lost my self-esteem and my world was him. 5. Another voicemail. even though i only spent 6 months or so with the narc, and in a long distance relationship, it really affected me. after coming out of a six year relationship with a man who I loved with all my heart. I have been a complete fool and depended on his support this entire time. I wanted to throw up. you see actually youre in control of you, until youre ready? !! Be strong. I guess seeing him triggered something..Its easier to forget about him because he stopped calling and theres no real chance of us running into another as we dont live in the same city. Its just nuts..and Im glad Im gone. Reblogged this on World4Justice : NOW! He says Im looney. you need to get meds to control your nerves or exercise and vitamins etc. You sound pretty strong, so he will have to pour it on to get to you. Im sure that he missed me in some ways after I quit himhe missed the fact that he could use me as his verbal (and a few times, physical) punching bag. And as long as theyre in control, they can leave you in torment for as long as they please. Havent heard from him, yet.. motivational posts about how horrible it is to alienate another parent from the kids, not fair for thme to only hear one side of the story! Im sad, still traumatized at the discard process (back and forth for about 3 months!) Oh, I could write a book. He was so manipulative. i have also sought out girlfriends to hang out with, and i think that has been the most therapeutic of all. It is VERY important that you know the difference between personality traits that have been IMPOSED on you by the narcissist and who you TRULY are. Its time to rip off the band aid and let it bleed out. Hello Kim and everyone here :0) I was forced to apply contact to my ex narc as he assaulted me I front of our little son when he came to pick him up last week. By the way, what shes doing isnt really No Contact,but a form of rejection and Silent Treatment designed to punish you for standing up for yourself. While narcissists share many of the same behaviors and traits, they are still individuals with their own personalities and motives. I will be contacting the local Domestic Violence Center and to get my daughter and I into counseling. Our website is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. They are sick people. no matter how hard it was. I run a very successful business. Even if they think you are smart, pretty, etc., they will NEVER let onits all about making you feel worthless, and its just a game. well done lady you have risen up a strong women!! After a breakup and/or going no contact a narcissist might try to suck you back into the abusive relationship. Ive been there, but the good news is that it CAN get better if you start the path to healing your soul. He wanted absolutely nothing to do with me in any way, shape or form and did not care what decisions I made in regards to any baby I might have. I lost my job and fell into depression he would watch me cry never a ounce of love sympathy and in financial trouble , my house is in foreclosure my esteem low due to no love . This disorder is especially sad because of the narcissists inability to see themselves as a narcissist, therefor never seeking treatment. You will if you want it. One night, he beat me up inside our car at the parking lot, he almost broke my neck. By now Im sure you know that she will never change, and she will always keep pulling you back. So, he stop caling me for six months. I feel like Im going insane. Here I go, bailing you out AGAIN. He will never see or hear from me again and yes, a part of me is waiting to receive his super-apology for what he did. Hes just pulling more narcissistic nonsense because he knows he still has power over you. If a narcissist sees or suspects youre about to break up with them and cut them out of your life, theyll do everything they can to regain control over you. I took my horses away from his yard because I couldnt take the repeated cycles of emotional abuse any longer. I believe he could have done that. The mental ups and downs, the LYING and swearing on everything he loves that hes not lying had me questioning if he in fact ever really loved me. i kept asking him what was going on, what was i doing wrong, did he want a divorce, he would say no. Thank you all for sharing! Told me how everyone loves him and that im the only one who makes him act like this. Oct increased the staying out all night by dec it was either fri or sat every weekend. He lies.. pathologicallysees the light of what he has done to me everything written here on this blog and by those who share their stories. This name makes sense because the person hoovering you is treating you like dirt and trying to suck you back into their control. Pinned me down on the bed and started pinching my face telling me to smile. The triggers are not as bad, nightmares are not as bad. I cry. I just simply wanted to tell you youre not alone. He just use me! in fact I found him to be worse off the drugs then on them! If he ever deigns to take responsibility for anything, its something HE feels okay with copping to, and even then something I said or did was the catalyst for his bad behavior. I guess I didnt realize the hard work he went through to win me over, was really a trap. Best wishes to you! Im trying to put one foor in front of the other right now. This narcissistic partner disrespected, degraded, confused, and/or manipulated you. My best advice to anyone is to stay away and move on from people like this. Until I read others posts on other sites what NC meant. Its amazing what you dont realize about people and then you get into a relationship with them and you find out all kinds of things. WHY DO YOU THINK THEY GO FOR Just hung up while he was talking. The term "ghosting" became mainstream about seven years ago alongside the surge in online dating; it became an official entry in the Merriam-Webster dictionary in 2017. Unbelievable to me now that I stayed and put up with all of it. respect others, have dignity, empathy, compassion, love.. & the importance of ones words being followed up w/ action! Ooooh soooo true except he brought flowers not to me but to my 84 yr old mother at my home. Hoovering presents in many forms. For the past 3 or so years however, I have not cared about his opinion of me. Sorry, yes self healing I read up all the time on the n to understand and what I can do mentally! This is my story and I wanted to share my experience with all of you. You are lucky because we often end up attracting another disordered person if we havent healed our wounds, but youve got a supportive and loving partner. Its been painfully eyeopening but oddly comforting. He never cared about my feelings. I wouldnt be surprised if he did, Hi Brigitte, it must be hard when you live so close by that you can run into him. Always making out I was in the wrong. It hasnt even been a week. i know i have this problem but even worse is the fear that it will be used against me. Theyve got you on the hook, so they dont have to pretend they enjoy your company. Prior to any discard, and as preparation / insurance policy in anticipation of it, narcopaths will have started a campaign designed to undermine the credibility of their victim. I tell him in the wind, good-bye quite a few times wanting closure and move on not have the triggers, the fear that he could be lurking in the shadows just to kill me. even thou, i have been allowing him to see the kids every other weekend. And whats so very very sad? The worse 3 years of my life!! But I have seen the glare in his eyes, the stare that people describe. Well, if they knew me well enough then they would buy into his BS. I realize im ignorant for even moving back here.Now im so weak and sad theres days i just want to give up. I havent replied as its not related to my son I want to, dont get me wrong but Im trying my hardest not to I dont know if its for the best or not? And Im even better. Same woman! He misses having an adoring, compliant partner. At first i thought this girl dumped him. 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